Sometimes, I wonder why you have to be mature when you can be happy. Even though we can accept that being mature prevents many problems, how exactly are you planning to live a life with nothing exciting and nothing to remember and feel happy about? Why can’t you make that one stupid decision again, and maybe at least feel happy?

I’ve seen people trying their best to uphold a stable image of themselves, like a very employable, decent, and respectful one. But I doubt the whole concept of 'respect'. Is that something you achieve by making 'mature' decisions, 'right' decisions, or decisions that make a large number of people happy? For me, I’d be happy if very few people respect me. I consider respect as a blocker that makes me repeatedly do what other people like, rather than what I ought to do. You could just consider me as a human who often makes stupid decisions for the sake of lore and happiness, and tries the best to spend my whole life doing random stuff.

Over the last few years, I’ve been only doing the things I like, and I never questioned myself whether I’ll have a good career out of it or if it’ll lead me to a happy life. But I have a strong sense that it might lead to something useful that could be a great discovery or be a part of any great discovery. But when I look up the past, it feels like I’ve been missing out on a lot of experiences that complete a human being, for instance, the ability to socialize well, and also the ability to take personal rejections. You could be skilled enough to engineer rockets and still be stupid in personal life, and if you are, you must not be proud about it.

The most I regret is not knowing how to express love properly. Either I don’t or do it explosively, which either turns them off or scares them away. So, if you’re a person living a similar life, try to be more human from now on. At least you’ll not regret it when the correct person arrives in your life. In your twenties, expressing love elegantly is one of the best skills you could develop.

When I was in the fifth grade, I was wondering why it’s hard for people to accept a “No”. Like, in movies, why do the heroes still try to convince the heroine even after she said no? Why don’t they just find another person? How hard can it be? I mean, yeah, it’s actually hard.

It makes you question everything you have done till now. Some people say it's because you're the chosen one. But in most cases, you don't suffer to become strong. You just suffer. There could be no reason at all. What are you even going to do with being such a mentally strong person? Lift the sun with your mind? If I were given the chance to become a chosen one or be happy with her, I’d always choose the latter.

The way you choose your career to mask yourself from your feelings makes it more rooted, anxious, and, in fact, even deeper. Maybe, take the time and actually find why it’s rooting, you’ll be free for life.